I’m finding it all too hard
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The sorry sort of a lie one does apply
has left so many now choosing to do away
with the obvious, – life in all its marvellous array
instead of to value life as is
and begin to look at life from the quiet of spaces within
where a person’s history genealogically provides
the sort of knowledge appropriately to know
how to favour oneself more like religion – sacredly.
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++++++++++++++++++++++++++The battle for survival is now so evident.
++++++++++++++++++++++++++Fear is no longer worthy
++++++++++++++++++++++++++but independency and responsibility.
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Can you rely on that?
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and you cannot rely on your own self
if you parked your humanity in a bricked in wall bunker
and then expect after the battle kill
all then is again homeward well.
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Life thereby means
irresponsibility sheds no worth at all on the case at hand
if one is given to supply one self as fodder to that of government to supply our wants, desire and demands –
no, you then become a drone-like robotic outcome
of another’s self indulgent, self serving plan –
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++++++++++++++++++++++++++and whose fault is that then…?
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Burnie Gunther Again
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Back with Bernie again, however this time it is in Berlin of 1938 and the business end of the NAZI tyranny take over of the Police.
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Bernie had left the Murder Commission four years or so earlier (resigned before being pushed) due to the demand to follow the political line – Join the Party or become redundant – permanently!

Bernie, being a social democrat, took the second path and went private. – Not married, no kids, no mortgage, no debt of any appreciable size; but was any of that really the reason underlying his choice?
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Although the author Philip Kerr doesn’t explicitly state it, Bernie hadn’t lost his humanity and more importantly his moral structure. Albeit, the need for justified killing (well staying alive) was not far from his capacity.
If we remember from our modern history classes, Germany from the early 1930’s had fallen into a state of mass psychosis where it became in effect a follow the leader dictatorship.
The problem was, that with the expulsion of those police who did not follow the party line, the ranks were filled with second rate performers and thugs and as a result actual crime increased while reported crime decreased. The new police got in on the crime act as well. Trouble was, when a politically embarrassing series of horrific crimes erupted, there were no officers of the highest calibre left who were needed to solve the cases.
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Bernie gets a Gestapo invitation to visit General Reinhardt Heydrich, chief of the Reich Security Main Office and off to the races we go. Trying to solve the crime, while himself staying one step ahead of the moral monsters and their preferred method of crime control – a bullet in the head, or having it chopped off, or having a visit to a concentration camp, – is the caper. His trouble of course was, how could he trust leaders like that and similarly, how could he trust the people he had been given to work with and for him. And of course, they seemed to hate his guts as well.
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I think that today he would be called ‘not a team player’ or ‘herd adverse’, or … , or something. – Oh! The Jews had already been eliminated from the serve / game by then as well.
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This book was one of the first that introduced Bernie and his travails with mid 20th century German fascist tyranny, to his many dedicated readers. This is little wonder as it sits so easily into recent Western life experience, triggering strong emotional understanding and connection.
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For pew sitters, it is a view into a further nail in the coffin of European Christianity.
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The Fuhrer leader, through the agency of his propaganda minister Reichsführer Joseph Goebbels, set out to destroy the Roman control over the German Church, not by overt murder or physical suppression, but he intuited that when push came to shove, the prestige, pay and perks of the religious community leaders and their followers would be enough to run them to ground.

This little book is a real corker and for anyone who hasn’t met Bernie yet, starting off with the Berlin Noir trilogy (of which this is the second) is a great way to commence. Be warned though, you may finish up becoming a fanatical follower.
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Oh I forgot to mention, you even get to meet Reichsführer SS Heinrich Himmler in his guise as a patron of a satanic cult within the senior SS hierarchy. What a ride! – Well before its time, or perhaps Kerr had a bit of the second sight himself. One wonders what he might be thinking of the last two years from the vantage point of his grave?
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Opening quote in the book:

“Much about your good people moves me to disgust, and it is not their evil I mean. How I wish they possessed a madness through which they could perish, like this pale criminal. Truly I wish their madness were called truth or loyalty or justice: but they possess their virtue in order to live long and in a miserable ease. – Nietzsche”

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An affliction of the power-seeking drunk
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This seems to be a condition associated with the religious pursuit and it is, but not confined just to the great wisdom traditions of the world.
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Having said that, Europe has had copious examples of ‘Church’ led crusades, but they were not quite as effective as the massive Secular Religion’s upheavals, particularly visible during the 20th century.
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All perverted Messiahs need a vehicle to ‘save the masses’, accompanied by character flaws that allow this type of spiritual madness to grow and flourish.
The two great power systems from last century affording the Messiah a platform, Fascism and Communism have carried over into this century and are gaining strength again.
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The pseudo messiah’s great character flaws (besides pathologies) are hubris; power worship; envy; greed; humbug.
It depends at what point on the Messiahship vertical scale the candidate sits, as to the ratio of money to power that becomes the prime motivator. That of course does not include the fool and fanatic whose activating passion is lack of love. One also needs to look at the preferred method of applied oppression; on the violence scale.
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It is unavoidable to look back to last century’s manifestations to see behaviour similarities and in how the Messiah’s of that era affected the young. This of course needs to be broken up into two halves:
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Pre 1945 and post 1945.
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Pre 1945, the major affect was death on a gargantuan scale, accompanied by the loss of freedoms instituted to fight WW I, and then never reinstated after 1918.
Post 1945, the predominant factors have been; robbing people (particularly the young) of their humanity, continuing loss of freedoms, and their indebtedness to a state of penury.
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Overarching all this was the continuing transfer of wealth from the majority to the few, albeit with the democracy hiccup from 1945 to the mid 1970’s slowing this for a while.
All of this is in plain sight today.
What is surprising to see are young people (and not so young) starting to see through the futileness of the cultural collapse in values, meaning and purpose that this current political economic system inculcates, and they are rejecting it.
This is becoming evident more so in the 80% – 90% who have been formed through education in all its forms to fill the roles of the servants and a growing proportion seeming having no use and hence inviting elimination.
The upper comprador set 10%-20% or ‘new internationalists’ had a brighter future appearing ahead of them until the financial crash of 2020/2021, piggy backed onto the pandemic. It will be interesting to see how this pans out in the years ahead, as the work for this cohort goes where the capital goes, and that is increasingly leading East. In a bifurcated world being sought by the Eurocentric World, opportunities are likely to shrink.
That is presupposing that serious size war is not resorted to and then nothing will look familiar again.
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So much for the secular religion.
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What about the Western Christian tradition that still tries to hang on?
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Well, its demise got a tremendous kick start with its support for war in 1914-1918. – a colossal blunder of the first magnitude. But one only needs review Germany 1934-1945 to see it starkly, with the name “The Confessing Lutheran Church” as an exemplary standout example.
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The dark Messiah of that time, intended to destroy Christianity but understood that it wasn’t necessary to use massive violence to achieve that end. He understood that the majority of Churched Christians would not in the end give up their positions, perks, prestige, livelihoods etc and would be brought to heal.
It turned out that people like the Confessing Church who would only give their allegiance to God, where ones needing elimination.
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When viewed from afar, Christian Fascism and Christian Communism/Socialism seems to sit so shallowly under the surface that it takes little to provoke it.
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The next 10 years are set to be quite cataclysmic.
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under threat or fear of death
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The way we walk determines our tread.
How? Obvious by the way we have and hold our own head.

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Take for instance the love of one’s own self. –
How many people are to be worthy of themselves, as an individual life player?
How many regard themselves as a citizen of the earth living planet?
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How can one become a responsible being of a human race without that of a worthwhile, life-lived-in state?
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How are we people of the earth to be secure, if worth as is love as is whole as freedom too, is not part of a religious type intent to become such as these who do?

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The whole is what the earth is and in that being so, surrounded by and instigated too by a force or source, substance, or engineering of which a scientist can but eventually contend is a ‘beyond’, a normal exercise to relatively explain entirely.
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I am a vegetable, or not?
Can one be sure if not to self enquire; who is this me, I am and can be in a world as different in so many forms as are ways?

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The Empire’s Religion
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To BE or not to BE is the metaphysical question of life. In the Anglo/Saxon Christian world – Jesus or Judus.
In the Western secular world – cultural collapse driving societal survival; or not. – A human being or a predator animal.
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Two lives:
++++++++++++++++++++• A whole human being, or
++++++++++++++++++++• A tribal, herd following sheep.
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Two deaths:
++++++++++++++++++++• One physical exit from a short brutish, +++++++++++++++++++meaningless, absurd life
++++++++++++++++++• The other an exit of the developed essence of who you have +++++++++++++++++++become.
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The latest challenge presented by the bug has shone a light on where Australian society is poised.
A continued slide down the road to collapse, or not.
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As the Mahatma Gandhi said and illustrated: Courage is the requirement.
For him, if you can’t fight against evil peacefully, you had better fight violently, but cowardice is totally, despicably unacceptable. For the christian westerner, the call of the teacher was to fight, but only peacefully, which takes more courage. Exactly the same as Gandhi did. If one can’t lead, then choose one’s leaders carefully. There is a dearth of good ones in these times.
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Dangerous – handle with care
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Does anyone remember the Einsatzgruppen Divisions of WW11? These “police actions” where commanded and led by many men with high level University training and qualifications in law.
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Thinking today how this could have happened, it is obvious fanaticism can sink to the very lowest depths of bestiality without being capable of voluntarily pulling back to a state of human decency. The fanatic is not overly courageous; the fanatic lacks the courage to face him/herself and repent.
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Further thinking leads to thinking about how the family lines of fanatics are forced (over many generations) to seek secular absolution for the fanatics themselves and their crimes, but also for the stain they leave on their families as a “hereditary gift”.
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It goes further than that though. The whole tribe gets stained as well, for it opens the failures of each member of the tribe to plain view. What did you do Father; Mother; Grandfather; Grandmother; Uncle; Aunty; Cousin; Friend; etc.etc.etc. to oppose such an obvious evil as that.
How could the tribe be pulled apart in one generation never to be reassembled in the same way again?
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Fools and fanatics come out of a similar metier and both are incredibly dangerous. Scoundrels can be reasoned with as their need/greed is to get what they want in tangible assets. Fools on the other-hand, don’t know what they want in a practical sense, except not to be made to look a fool and a failure and get some relief for their rancorous pain.
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All sorts of violence is possible in that pursuit.
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The option of choice: Keep on doubling down until retreat and then call it victory which it isn’t.
The antidote: Think before you leap and respect the need for self respect.

Vietnam was one thing, Afghanistan another, but the bug is a real killer deal.
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History’s Deplorables – change makers or breakers
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I ride on a bus. I walk in the rain and sunshine alike. I listen to the birds in trees, where ever they are, but try now to find. I want for naught. I like the day and value the night.
But what of the deplorables in and throughout?
Who has the motive to destroy at will and let the deplorables suffer endlessly without care of a life, human and divine?
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I watch and listen. I speak when spoken to, but fear now is almost impossible because the question arises, who are you?
Who is in that space between, who love to listen to nature and all in-between?
But now, as the value of a human being’s choice, we are under some form of dictatorship but call it liberty or whatever the latest of jargon on the scene.
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I cry at night as the border divides.
I cry at night for not being able to speak without another gaining an idea that I may not be the one they want at the next party, for fear.
What am I to be doing as the days roll on by when people are too afraid to do anything, for fear is the ultimate, day upon day?
Can we not rise out of our hum drum spaces of incarceration, and liberty-wise, drive around with masks on and not speak but at least roam around to perhaps the nearest vacant beach?
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Coughing and spluttering I have not heard.
Coughing and influenza symptoms on the streets but who is among us aware?
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The level of information is about as clear as the inflammation on our lungs, but clear. So why are we being labelled each and every day more and more as if some form of refugee camp offshore?
The whole is not being considered each day.
The whole of what pervades us in this particular strain.
But here we are herded and tested and magnified in all it is that comes to us but more of the same – fear, fear and more so every day.
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What type of world? What type of day?
What type of numbers or are they cases and what sort? – No idea.
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Yes, that is it, no idea and yet we line upon line to ensure we are clear. Sure it is a possibility that we are all now being jabbed and so no more to worry for years and years. But let us be particular about what we read and hear, for I am now among the many, who now have a different type of future, – fear. (my dears)
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Life of a historical bent is to become known as the history of the jab.
What an epitaph at the end or is it more to surface way before then?
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How am I to wrestle when the army are near, to save myself from the slaughter if a war is to come here? How am I to ensure I am clear to not succumb to another and another vaccination year, or is it now (as) in Israel by monthly doses and still not clear?
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Jesus wept and so did I when I heard that a Christmas in Australia may be open but as yet still not clear. Why now when so many are herded and tested and jabbed now?
Why so frightened when it will be over as prior years when we did, if old, naturally die?
But now, as we play with our children and such, we have to be careful, who or not has had that jab, for neither are clear, it now does appear. Look at the stats coming in from over the globe – what then are we to face?
Deplorables may end up being the political cohorts and their specific type of race.

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A jab in the arm of history.
What a title but not so sweet, if we are to them be the brunt of the universe until days end whenever that be, looks as if the borders do not in them compete.

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No Way but Down ???
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The Clock in Ticking
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Time for us, the people, to revert back to the original version of who we are. What we really believe we are and have at our own disposal.
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We are a body of influence. We contain knowledge beyond our own abilities, but only then when we give time to research, estimate, understand and negotiate. But then what are we doing with all this characterisation of a human being?
What are we becoming in a world of un-rested-ness and shamefulness?
Are we truly a reliable source, of the we we know, given time to decide the outcomes for our future? How do the present dilemmas, of forced change in outlook, decision making and corrective behaviour affect that freedom to choose?
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Are we capable of standing for our own rights, our liberties, our own histories of past generations who actually decided to stand strong against any violent form of protestation by political elites and their cohorts; whatever in their time that did actually mean?
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What are our outcomes likely to pose in a future of no more decision by comparisons, no more ability to decide where or whatever one does choose to express? The whole mess is folding in on us and we appear to settle for a type of second nature, a type of irrevocable disaster.
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God, I said one morning earlier in this pandemic extremism, what are You on the face of this mess? Some form of back-ender as if on a political platform of no one able to understand in your complex authoritarian motif? No was the reply, I AM on the bench waiting and watching if you can only wake to the turbulence before you and make a stand for your own right to exist and live as freely and comfortably as is possible, without a dictatorial influence to subject you to fear of any of the following: right to have a say; right to have freedom of speech regardless as long as it is not of the form to inflict harm and subject another to a state of fear from the banal but hurtful stand; freedom of choice as in your own being, your own state of human and being, being that you are more than the eye or ear, tongue or mouth can concur is the all, the everything we are as a frail human species.
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Can we become a source of our own human and being, of being, that source of mysterious nature that comes in through the mind of thought? Can we? Can we consider our past and future in the present situation at hand or do we consider handing over is far simpler until the walls are built high and the barbed wire on top shows something of a future; reminiscent of our own past as in a concentration apartment block, or a Sydney-sider living at the lower end of the spectrum? Can we? Oh yes we can but it will take a change in the value of who we are and the rise of an outlook which is present but of which we are not yet able to comprehend. We are still swirling in this ubiquitous state of manufactured, fear inducing affairs, and have handed over to some sort of consortium of which no end is in sight.

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We fell into the spell of lunacy. And now we are in the land of no value and no way out, suffocating the sense of our own validity and worth, our own human birth right and sense of purpose, direction and longing to enjoy whatever is possible within reason while we are to live on this once green and pleasant land.
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Enjoy what you can, given the outlook is penury if no change.

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Persecution at my Door
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The Gates of Hell
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I awoke one morning and decided to read a Calvinist view and my bed started to rumble and I thought, surely not the cavalry outside my own room. – Only to discover the feet too were stationed in numbers clad like a military, about to a subservient nationalist to be endlessly pursued.
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God do help here …
for loss of human rights ensues and I am to fear life in Australia is backing the death knoll as if a past reign of some lunacy crew.
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An article in this morning’s Spectator Australia by Dr Bella d’Abrera draws attention to the very long teleological heritage of the current lock-down mania. Have a read of it and see what you think.